I understand if you feel alone, if you feel like I could not care as much as you do. It’s not your fault that you feel this way. It’s okay, I understand. It’s my fault. I have always been proud of you being my girlfriend, I have always been thankful for the fact that it’s your face I see every day and not any other’s. You mean so much more to me than I can ever tell the world. I feel all of these and yet the care I give is not the right one but understand, love that you really matter to me and I will always be here to listen to your sentiments and to make it all better, even just for a little. It’s difficult for me to express my feelings and sentiments but this does not mean that you do not mean so much to me.
I will always be yours and I am hoping that you would always be mine again. I really cannot imagine us being with someone else. Your happiness means a lot to me and I’d be more than willing to be the source of just that. Forgive me if I always disappoint you in whatever I do. I have a lot of lackings when it comes to this relationship of ours and I am not sure if I ever am able to make up for all that. I promised you maturity in return and yet, I still fail to fully change into being the ideal partner for your life. I know how much it hurts you to care for me while I show that I cannot be bothered to change myself for the better. I know it seems like a big bluff but you are all that I ever cared about. You are all I ever shed genuine tears for, the only one I had ever gotten chest pains in a good way for. You are worth so much more to me than I am able to show and this disappoints you, I know. I am not a vocal person nor am I an expert in relationships. I fail in making you feel the love I feel for you and it is frustrating, I know. Even for me, too.
Despite all this, I would like you to know that there is not another woman I could feel this feelings for. There will never be a time when I would fall for someone other than you. I also am not able to make you feel that I really do want you to be mine only. I fail to be a selfless person when it comes to you. I take too many shortcuts and I am lazy most of the time. I am cautious and not sensitive at the same time. I tend to take the easy way out for problems and I am not able to make you feel secure in my arms. I know I lack so much in this relationship we have but I feel so much more for you than I am able to show. My heart is at ease with you and I know that it is truly yours, as cheesy as it may sound. You can give me your heart, too. I will protect it with all my life. You, my sunshine and my princess, are the love of my life. It really pains me to make you go all through the hardships I put onto the path of your life. I do not want to see you suffer so much but I promise you I will do what I can to make things better. You can trust me and you can talk to me anytime. If you are not feeling well, I notice and I will not stop asking you until we get down to the problem.
I may not be the best at portraying all of these but I hope I can show even a glimpse of it through the thing I do best: writing. It may seem to be all words for now but as unrealistic as it may seem for you, I am writing with my heart on my sleeve at the moment. My heart beats with every word that I write, with every thought I have in mind. Now, love, I know you are mad and hurt at the same time. But trust me, I have never liked the thought of seeing you with another in any way. I will tell everyone from now on that you, my love, are mine and mine only. I won’t let anyone else talk to you in ways that only I should be able to. Because you’re mine. I won’t let anyone else make you feel down, as well. You can confide in me everything there is to confide. I am your shoulder to cry on and the shelter to your rain. You are mine, I am yours, and your happiness is mine as well. No care I ever showed you was fake, I swear my life on that. Every thing I do for you is sincere. I never simply acted when it comes to caring for you. You matter. You really do.